Worry

Miss Natalee is 16 1/2 months and I feel like I have been in constant battle with in over her!!  When will she come out?  Will it be before Josh's exam?  Why is she choking so much on my milk?  Pertussis?!? WHAT?!? Why isn't she smiling, rolling over, sitting, crawling??  Her core control is so weak.  Her feet turn in.  Why is she getting so many ear infections?!?  We have tubes, why do they keep coming?  Why is she not walking yet?!?  

It seemed like the worry and doubt would never stop.  No matter how much progress she made there was always something.  I am NOT that way with Garrett and Haylee, why am I that way with her???  

This weekend after talking with Josh and some friends I decided I was going to call physical therapy to get her back in because she still was not walking.  Yes she had taken up to 11 steps but that was maybe twice.  Most of the time it was 2 steps and then down she went....since the middle of August.  I had a plan, my mind was made up...come Monday morning we were making an appointment with physical therapy.  

Monday morning comes around and she takes a good 20 steps....one time.  But 20 STEPS!!  Ok so maybe I shouldn't call.  Just give it more time, she's progressing.  

Tuesday (today) comes around and she gets out of her crib and walks....all over the place!!!  Yes she's still wobbles and falls but she's walking!!  30....40.....steps at a time!!!  

I feel right now that God is telling me OVER AND OVER AND OVER again to trust Him.  I know Natalee will be fine.  I've known that.  So why do I worry??  

I know my battle with worry is not over but I pray that I can learn a little more each time.  I strive to get to the point to not be anxious but to give God everything because he is the one that understands it all.  

Natalee started walking today!!

 Just about done with taking pictures......almost

We LOVE you so much Natalee!!